James Watt reflects on loss and legacy of his father

The former Brewdog CEO shares heartfelt memories and struggles with grief.

In a heartfelt conversation on Jamie Laing’s podcast, James Watt, the former CEO of Brewdog, opened up about the profound grief he has experienced following the death of his father, Jim Watt. Jim, a North Atlantic fisherman, passed away in August after a brief battle with pancreatic cancer, leaving James to grapple with feelings of guilt and loss.

Struggling with grief and guilt

James expressed a deep sense of regret, stating, “I feel like I let him down in a way. I wasn’t able to find a doctor, treatments, or anything that could give him a little bit more time.” This sentiment resonates with many who have lost loved ones, as the desire to do more often weighs heavily on the bereaved.

He candidly shared, “I feel so selfish in my grief. The person I feel saddest for is me.” This reflection highlights the complex emotions that accompany loss, where personal sorrow can feel at odds with the collective mourning of others.

A close bond and cherished memories

Watt reminisced about the close relationship he shared with his father, who played a pivotal role in his life, especially given the strained relationship with his mother. “I was so incredibly close to my dad and I didn’t speak to my mum, so my dad picked up the role of both parents,” he recalled. Jim was not just a father but also a mentor and a hero to James, illustrating the profound impact a parent can have on their child’s life.

Dreams and lasting connections

Even after his father’s passing, James continues to feel his presence in his dreams. He shared a poignant memory: “Every night I dream about him. He loved my daughters. I recently dreamt that I was out on the boat with him and he knew that he was going to die that evening.” In this dream, Jim prepared for the future by filling zip-lock bags with toys and books for his granddaughters, a gesture that encapsulates his loving nature. This connection through dreams serves as a comforting reminder of the bond they shared.

James Watt’s reflections on his father’s life and their relationship reveal the complexities of grief and the enduring impact of parental love. As he navigates this challenging time, his story resonates with anyone who has faced similar losses, reminding us of the importance of cherishing our loved ones and the memories we create together.